Vampire Love

you fill me
so full of life
it spills over my lips when i kiss you

your mouth, sweet and familiar
like something i’ve known longer than myself
your arms wrap around me
and i wonder if you feel how tightly i hold back

we stand side by side
toothbrushes in hand
mint and morning light
your shoulder brushing mine

and i think
was it already there?
that dull ache in my teeth
the quiet pressure to sink deeper
scrubbing and scrubbing
as if i could wear it down

you laugh softly
unaware
or maybe you feel it
just not enough to name it

you’re quieter now

i feel you slipping
somewhere softer
somewhere deeper

and i let it happen

warmth spills, slow and red
richer than i imagined
sweeter than it should be

it reminds me of something childish
a babybel wrapper
red wax peeled back in careful strips
i never ate the cheese
just held the wax between my fingers
pressed it, shaped it
wondered at it

funny
how curiosity always wanted more 

your hands don’t push me away
they just rest there
lightly
like you’ve forgotten what they’re for

your body leans into mine
not resisting 
not quite choosing

just… giving 

so i take 
because this is love, isn’t it?
to want you this much
to need you this deeply
to feel you become part of me

i know i should stop

i feel the edge of it now
the point where this becomes something else

but you’re so warm
so soft
so mine in this moment

when i finally pull away
you’re gone

and i wait
for the emptiness
for the hollow ache

but it never comes

because you filled me 
completely

one last time.